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I remember the exquisite stillness of The Liberties in April of 2020. I remember the plaintive beauty of birdsong. Gone were the tram and automobile traffic; whining whistle of a car alarm; seagulls yelping overhead; and most of all, human voices through the streets. All we had was glorious, generous, golden warm sun, and quietness.
By the next year, still in the hush mid-pandemic, I really missed the transcendental, ecstatic experience that was a Sunday worship service in my Pentecostal church. Seeking spiritual refreshing, I turned to some favorite worship songs, and found that this intensely emotional music overwhelmed me. I could no longer “connect” to it, and felt fatigued by the constant crescendos on the drum kits building up to crash out another exploding repetition of the refrain.This regular emotional catharsis was what I identified as the “Spirit moving,” or “God’s presence.” How often I would hear the pastor or service leader remark that he or she could feel a special weight in the air, and conclude that there was something hyperspiritual and holy about that moment, as if the fervor of our worship had called down a special dispensation of God’s presence (a concept I have always felt is theologically unhinged, in a word). Stronger emotions both expressed and indicated to others greater spirituality. In church I have fallen on my knees, I have danced, I have jumped up and down with joy, I have fallen on my face and wept loudly.In 1 Kings 19, the prophet Elijah flees for his life from his enemy, Queen Jezebel. He comes to the wilderness and it is here that he hides himself, praying to God that it would be better if he were dead. Eventually, he sleeps. He is unexpectedly awakened by an angel two separate times, who brings him food and water and insists that he eat. Following this, Elijah goes forth on the strength of those provisions for forty days, where he encounters the living God on Mount Horeb (that is, Mount Sinai). God asks Elijah why he is hiding—Elijah tells Him he is the very last one who remains that is faithful to Him, exceedingly zealous for Yhwh Sabaoth (Yahweh, God of Hosts), and that Jezebel is pursuing him unto death. God tells him to come to the mouth of his cave, and that He will pass before him.The ugly side of this is I equated emotionality with spiritual sensitivity, and even understood it to be the voice of God. I felt my prayers were more heartfelt and even more effective if they were accompanied by agonizing tears of pleading. This is what I perceived to be the Holy Spirit—rushing, overwhelming, crashing over my head like waves. I let myself consequently be carried away by every feeling I had, especially painful ones like loneliness, fear, and self-pity, sometimes even spiritualizing this as a nasty attack from the enemy.First, a hurricane wind blows past Elijah’s face; then a stone-splitting earthquake shakes the mountain; and then, a wildfire rages, roaring past. But Yhwh was not in the wind, nor the earthquake, nor the fire.It has been six years now since I was regularly attending a Pentecostal church; it has been closer to ten years since I attended a Hillsong-esque church with immersive worship services. For almost a full year I have been attending Divine Liturgy in my local Romanian Orthodox church, and as of this month I have been officially Orthodox for six months. My way of life has changed entirely.Orthodoxy perfuses daily life and transforms the quotidian into sacred time; it draws from you and reinforces in you habits that follow the day by day. Your life becomes cycles and circles around sacred time. Morning and evening there are prayers to pray; every day there is another saint to be commemorated or a special event to be observed in the life of Christ, and this is echoed in our bodies through repeating seasons of fasting or the celebration of feasts, according to the liturgical calendar. Worship is done while simply standing still, both face and spirit at rest, comfortable, neutral. There is no impassioned swaying. There is rarely crying, and then never openly. Prayers are repeated and repeated and repeated until they are known by heart. And yet, a change is mysteriously effected, the effects of participation in Orthodox life grow imperceptibly stronger.Whereas before I would be yanked down by the undertow of my emotions, I am instead like the sandy shore whereupon the upwelling waves break, diffuse, and slowly retreat back, leaving only hope and joy. It reminds me of when a little child falls or gets a bit hurt while playing, begins to cry with fear of pain, then suddenly realizes they’re okay. No tears, and back to their playing.Yhwh was not in the wind, nor in the earthquake, nor in the fire. Following all of these, there is a voice as a faint whisper.The ancient Greek translates this using the word aura, like a light morning breeze—and there was Yhwh. And this I only I experienced for the first time following my baptism as Orthodox, after all external distractions had been quieted, and emotions had been calmed and dispersed. It is just as the Bible describes. It is this exceedingly gentle, sweet presence, soft yet ever-present; easily ignored, yet winsome and healing. -
Introduction
In case you were unaware, there are four women listed in the genealogy of Christ in the beginning of Matthew: Tamar (Gen 38), Rahab (Josh 2), Ruth, and “the wife of Uriah,” or Bathsheba. The story of David and Bathsheba in 2 Samuel 11-12 is often read as a major condemnation of David’s character, and Bathsheba is harshly castigated for her actions, upheld as a negative example.
The older, evangelical tradition can often blame Bathsheba for “causing” David to “fall” into adultery, never mind the reality that adults are all responsible for their actions and choices. But if we read the text of Samuel closely, David is never characterized as a perfect human. Far from it, for he is a womanizer, brash, boastful. This interpretation of misplaced blame is severely lacking, and fundamentally misogynistic.
However, there has been a turn in scholarship in recent years, especially following the #MeToo movement, which has sought to amplify and center the voices of victims, which interprets the tale of David and Bathsheba of one that is nought but of terror, rape, and a straightforward abuse of power. I, however, am going to argue that this more recent position is an over-correction and an imposition of a modern-day world view.
Rather than empowering women, this interpretation places an unnecessary strain on a text that does not ultimately wish to warn us against an abuse of power. There is enough terror and sexual abuse in the Hebrew Bible, and there is no need to utilize David as an example of an abuse of power, particularly when there are so many other clearer instances of this elsewhere. Not to mention that such texts are outright depressing, and can be triggering to hear discussed ad nauseum, especially by scholars who can get lost in the theoretical and forget about real life.
Finally, regarding Bathsheba’s “fault,” the very points of contention for which Bathsheba is excoriated in commentaries can in fact be used rather as a credit to her character and cleverness—just as it is with all the women who are mentioned in Christ’s genealogy. (All translations below are my own.)
Assault and Terror in the Hebrew Bible
In 2 Samuel, the pericope of David and Bathsheba is conspicuously silent on the relations between them. In contrast to this, there are two other cases in which women are raped, one being Dinah, the daughter of Jacob (Gen 34); the other being David’s own daughter Tamar, by his son Amnon (2 Sam 13). Both of these cases have in common a clear reaction of grief to the traumatization and cultural shaming of the women who were victimized.
In Genesis 34, although Dinah is not given a voice of her own, her brothers are “grieved and angry” (v. 7). Simeon and Levi act swiftly to avenge her by killing every male in the city of Shechem, “on the third day, when they were still hurting” (v. 25). In the case of the second biblical Tamar, after she is assaulted “she took ashes upon her head, and tore the long robes she was wearing, and lay a hand upon her head and went away, crying aloud” (v. 19). Only after two years is Absalom able to avenge her, her and he has his servants kill Amnon (2 Sam 13:23-29).
The only record we have of the sexual encounter between David and Bathsheba, on the other hand, is in 2 Sam 11:4: “And David sent messengers and fetched her, and she came to him, and he lay with her.” Although the word here I translated as “fetched” could alternately be translated as “seized,” or “took,” there is nothing in the context to suggest it was a violent taking of Bathsheba to bring her to David, nor does the ancient Greek translation use a violent word, but rather the common, neutral word meaning “to take.” I do not think it is simply because David is using his power for selfish ends that the text is lacking any sort of grief or indication of affliction or traumatization.
Redeeming Bathsheba
There are several details in the text which I would like to point out that have been used to denigrate Bathsheba, which I think can be instead interpreted in the general tradition of biblical women using their very limited means in a clever and cunning way in order to secure a future for themselves. If you are not familiar with the other three women, I highly recommend reading their stories with this in mind! The circumstances each of these women find themselves in are exceedingly difficult, and they take actions that could be seen as simply morally wrong.
However, rather than being used as an illustration of a bad example, these women, particularly by being mentioned in an otherwise male-only genealogy, are honored for their bravery and brains. Each of them finds themselves in a real life-or-death situation, without a man to properly care for them and ensure their health and flourishing. They take drastic measures in dire circumstances and in the end, through their shrewdness find themselves folded into the ancestry of Jesus Christ! There is nothing I can think of that would honor or praise these women more highly.
Bathsheba’s Home Life
The odds are stacked against our heroine. We know that she is the wife of Uriah, a mercenary soldier who comes from the Neo-Hittites, a people skilled in warfare originating in northern Syria and southern Anatolia. (Wright, Jacob L., David, King of Israel and Caleb in Biblical Memory, (Cambridge: Cambridge University Press, 2014), 82-83.) This is the only detail we have about her familial status—she is childless. In this society, women had no rights or property, and so were wholly dependent on both their husbands as well as any children they may have, particularly the firstborn sons, if they were so fortunate as to have a son.
Immediately this sets the tension for the scene—a woman married to a professional soldier knows that she must take swift and decisive action in order to preserve her life and wellbeing. Her only option following her husband’s imminent death would be starvation or prostitution. The next detail we learn about Uriah’s character is that he is so set on making a name for himself in battle that he entirely abdicates his responsibility to care for his wife (1 Sam 11:13). When invited to dine with the king back at the palace, he refuses to “go down” to be reunited with her. This sort of decision stands in shocking contrast to the overall ethos of the Hebrew Bible, which emphasizes over and again the importance of progeny and the continuation of the people, and therefore the faith. Bathsheba instead decides for bravery and self-preservation, and in the process, stakes out an everlasting legacy.
The Character of David
David, we know, is a womanizer. His first wife is a woman named Michal; later he marries Abigail; then he has Bathsheba. Bathsheba knows this about the king, and if I may be so bold, she also knows she is a babe. Although Bathsheba is often portrayed as bathing on the roof of her house in verses 2 and 4, this blatant public exposure is not entirely necessary. David spots her while he is taking a walk along the roof of “the king’s house,” or palace, seeing that she is “exceedingly beautiful” (v. 2). My room where I currently live has high ceilings, and when I am up on my bed in my loft, I can easily glance across the street and see directly into the rooms of my neighbors—all their furniture, whether they’re eating or laying on their beds watching Netflix, whatever it is.
Bathsheba would not need to be on her own roof bathing—this is an absurd notion, and because she is performing ritual bathing following her menstrual cycle, this indicates to us that she is a devout woman, and no harlot. (Although another one of the women in Jesus’ genealogy is also a harlot, and another one gained a son through “harlotry,” so the line of what is morally acceptable is not exactly black and white in these circumstances.) Bathsheba could simply have waited until the afternoon sun was beaming into her house, left the curtains slightly parted, and performed her ablutions from the [relative] privacy of her own home. The trap is set.
Ritual Purification after Menstruation
The next important detail in this story is in verse four, given in the NRSV as a parenthetical statement—she was purifying herself after her period. This is outlined in Leviticus 15:28-30—a woman is to wait a full seven days after the last day of her menstrual cycle before she is allowed to rejoin normal life and activities in her home, but only after a ritual bath in a mikvah. The average menstrual cycle takes around 28 days: day one begins on the first day of bleeding, which lasts for 3-5 days; ovulation occurs around day fourteen, and the fertile window lasts several days. The simple math places Bathsheba right at peak fertility in her monthly cycle.
One commentator in a classical exegetical source notes that this window of time was widely known in the ancient world as the most fertile period for a woman. (Smith, Henry Preserved. A Critical and Exegetical Commentary on the Books of Samuel, International Critical Commentary (New York: Scribner, 1899), 318.) Therefore this would have been common knowledge, particularly to the childless Bathsheba, and she seizes her opportunity in a timely manner. In the following verse she sends to inform David that she has, unsurprisingly after their union, become pregnant.
Bathsheba Immortalized
I do not necessarily see an abuse of power here, or really that David has any particularly great power in this situation. It is easy, as we know, for any male to forcibly grab a woman and assault her—David does not need servants to do this dirty work for him, especially considering how strong and mighty he is. 1 Samuel 17:33 names him “a man of war from his youth,” in the same pericope where he slays Goliath, we learn that he also has killed multiple lions and bears to protect the flocks of his father.
Bathsheba knew that she as a childless woman was about to become destitute and homeless as a widow, and acts to find a way to save her own life. The child that results from of her union with David of course dies in infancy (vv. 15b-23), which I personally see as a mercy to the child. It was an illicit and shameful situation, to be sure, and that child would have been marked for life as the child that resulted in the cold murder of his mother’s first husband, a bastard.
The second child to be born of David and Bathsheba is none other than the son who would become king and build the tabernacle to Yhwh—we now know him as King Solomon, to whom is accredited nearly all the wisdom literature in the Hebrew Bible canon. Strictly speaking in terms of the welfare of Bathsheba, her tale is something of an R-rated film with a fairy tale ending. She lives the rest of her days in the palace, becoming the Queen Mother. When framed in this way, one could definitely say—good for her, I am happy for her. Snap in a Z-formation. Call her an empowered woman.
And to speak in more Christian terms, what we see here is the grace of God made manifest in the lives of both David and Bathsheba, taking the imperfect decisions they made and redeeming them far beyond what either of the could have imagined. The choices that both these two people made had eternal repercussions.
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This is a blog post that only one person in the history of the universe could write, and that person is me—with my love of the Bible and my love of Hanson, this is something that has been burning in my chest for something like twenty years, ever since I read Ecclesiastes in my early teen years. All translations are my own.

Friendship in ProverbsA friend loves in all seasons; and a brother or sister is born for distress. Prov. 17:17
One of the biggest hits of yesteryear, which is rapidly approaching its thirtieth anniversary, was a song released by some long-haired blond homeschool kids, a band of three brothers called Hanson. They blew immediately to international stardom with their utter smash hit MMMBop, which is usually remembered for its nonsensical chorus of “du bops” and “duba dops.” They were raised on doo-wop and early rock ‘n’ roll, and their simple rhyme scheme in their lyrics and old-fashioned musical style still reflect this.
However, if one takes a second listen and pays attention to the lyrics of the verses, it is clear that this song has a deep message, which was ripped directly from the pages of the Wisdom Literature of the Old Testament. And soon the made up word “mmmbop” will also have a relevant meaning.
Verse one starts off this way:
You have so many relationships in this life / only one or two will last / you go through all the pain and strife / then you turn your back and they’re gone so fast. //
So hold onto the ones who really care / in the end they’ll be the only ones there / when you get old and start losing your hair, / can you tell me who will still care? // … in an mmmbop they’re gone.
If we take a look at Proverbs 18:24, we can render this verse, which is very difficult in Hebrew, roughly this way:
A friendly person has many acquaintances; but there is a companion (lit. one who loves) that clings tighter than a brother or sister.
In a delightful interplay on this Proverbial idea of seasons or moments, of loyal friends for all time, we see that Hanson describes the flighty, fair-weather friend as gone in an mmmbop, that is, in an instant—probably more quickly than we can sing those two syllables!
The meaning of this verse is debated, and therefore is rendered differently in any translation one may read. This verse is, technically speaking, an antithetic bicola, meaning the two clauses of the sentence portray opposite ideas. Thereforem within this binary expression is encompassed the whole truth about friendship.
The first half of the verse can alternately be translated thusly: “A person of many friends is slated for only self-destruction”; “There are friends who are for only ruin,” and “A person of many friends brings his own ruin.” The idea is—in stark contrast with the one who loves that cleaves tighter than a sibling—that some friends are only superficially interested in you, and are nowhere to be found when trouble comes. In an mmmbop they’re gone.
Proverbs further fleshes out these ideas of friendship in 14:20-21:
Even their neighbors/friends disdain the poor person; but the rich person has many who love them.
The one who despises their neighbor sins; but the one who shows deep compassion the poor—how happy/blessed!
The first verse states a reality, even if harsh. It is easy for resentment to build, for instance, between Chandler Bing and Joey Tribbiani, when Chandler is out thousands of dollars in the first seasons of Friends because Joey is a broke, out-of-work actor. Contrary to that, take Billie Eilish as another example. She said she recently realized that the people who surrounded her—who she considered to be her friends—were not in fact her real friends, seeing as they were only on her payroll. She decided after this to enforce professional boundaries with these people she worked with, and to rekindle old friendships, or forge new ones with people who truly cared for her, and not simply her money.
The Unpredictability of Life
The second verse, and later the bridge of MMMBop say:
Plant a seed plant a flower plant a rose / you can plant any one of those / keep planting to find out which one grows / it’s a secret no one knows //Can you tell me? (If it’s gonna be a daisy or a rose?) / You say you can but you don’t know / Can you tell me which flower’s gonna grow? / You say you can but you don’t know
Here is where I was struck to the heart when I read Ecclesiastes, for its near complete parallel of 11:6:
In the morning, sow your seed and at evening do not let your hand rest; for you do not know which will flourish, whether this one or that one, or whether the two of them both will be good.
In the context of life, and especially friendships, this is a heartening reminder that we have no way of predicting which relationships in our lives will in fact flourish. Just seeing my life play out since the major upheaval that was my move to Germany has brought some shocking lost connections, as well as the pleasant surprised of some other friendships being restored to me.
Overall it is apparent to me that not only were the three Hanson brothers, Isaac, Zac and Taylor, raised on a steady diet of Scripture, but that this song has an incredibly deep message of wisdom to convey. It embraces the reality that life happens and things change, and that we should be diligent to sow our seeds of friendships, in spite of the fact that some losses are inevitable. After all, there are always one or two friends along the way who are closer to us than kin, and are nothing but loyal. This is one of the sweetnesses of life!
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I have had a handful of conversations about fasting lately, coincidentally falling around the time of Lent. If you know me very well, you’ll know that this is a topic I love discussing, because of how much it transformed my life. For the last five years, fasting has also been the focus of my academic research, and I am always thinking about it.
The point of contention I always encounter with people in conversations is the issue of fasting from social media. I would like to make an apologia (defense) of fasting as strictly a physical sacrifice of food, meaning that abstaining from social media, as beneficial as this is and can be, is not true fasting. First, we will look at how fasting was historically practiced, especially in the Christian tradition. Then, we will see how in Isaiah 58, the prophet condemns the religious hypocrisy he saw in Judah at the time. Finally, we will see why the physical sacrifice of food is so central to this practice.
What is true fasting?
Practically, fasting has been practiced by both Jews and Christians for at least around two thousand years. In Jesus’ day, Jews observed two fast days per week, on Mondays and Thursdays. Later on, Christians adopted this practice, but changed their fast days to Wednesdays and Fridays. There were also certain days in the liturgical calendar during which Jews were commanded to fast (like on Purim eve, or Yom Kippur, among other days). Lent is, of course, another season marked by fasting or abstention. Typically when Christians do fast, they will spend time in the Word and in prayer when they would normally be eating.
Jesus’ Instructions for Christian Piety
In Matthew 6, Jesus gives us instructions for living a pious, or devoted life, saying, “When you pray…” When you give alms…” and “When you fast…” He contrasts the self-focused, performative ways in which people were doing these things with the better way to practice: without thought for what we gain, or how we are perceived. In modern day Evangelical practice, we tend to pray in our “prayer closets” and to give without being recognized for our generosity, although we likely wouldn’t observe fasting, regularly or otherwise.
In Eastern Orthodox tradition, which is incredibly strict around fasting, they follow Jesus’ instructions in Matthew 6 as a unified triad. They are told that on their regular fast days, whatever money they save on food should be given to the poor instead. It is a literal and direct observance of these instructions we have from Jesus, and almost surprising in its outward, community focus. We tend to think of fasting as an individual and private thing, not least of all because Jesus tells us not to broadcast that we are fasting. But our fasting is pointless if it does not in some way help me love my neighbor better, and benefit someone else other than myself.
Hypocritical Fasting
Beyond weekly fasting, in the Old Testament, sometimes it was used as a way to try and get God’s attention, to ask Him for mercy in suffering. Hannah does this in 1 Samuel 1 when she is desperate for a child, and God gives her a son in Samuel, the first prophet of Israel. David also does this in 2 Samuel 12, in an attempt to save his son’s life after conceiving illegitimately with Bathsheba. His plea is not answered in this instance. This kind of fasting is what is happening in Isaiah 58, in which God answers back to why their pleading fasts are unsuccessful. At the beginning of this chapter, God quotes the people of Judah:
“‘Why do we fast, but you do not see? Why humble ourselves, but you do not notice?’” (58:3a).
God responds by saying,
“Look, you serve your own interest on your fast day, and suppress all your workers. Look, you fast only to quarrel and fight and to strike with a wicked fist. Such fasting as you do today will not make your voice heard on high. …Will you call this a fast, a day acceptable to the Lord?” (vv. 3-4, 5b)
Following this, God corrects them by telling them they should pursue justice and to fight for the poor, oppressed, and marginalized:
“Is not this the fast that I choose: to loose the bonds of injustice, to undo the thongs of the yoke, to let the oppressed go free, and to break every yoke? Is it not to share your bread with the hungry, and bring the homeless poor into your house; when you see the naked, to cover them, and not to hide yourself from your own kin?” (vv. 6-7)
The setting of this chapter takes place around the end of the 8th century or early 7th century BCE, after the nation of Israel has split in two: Israel in the north (who had already fallen to the Assyrians), and Judah in the south. Isaiah is in the Judean capital of Jerusalem, speaking to the nation of the imminent threat of invasion and destruction on the horizon. He warns them that if they do not return to God, their city will be destroyed. Of course we do know that Jerusalem did eventually fall, to the Babylonians, less than 150 years afterward, and the people of God were sent into exile.
In a manner not much different from today, the poor were being extorted and exploited in order to benefit a very few rich at the top. This is what the prophets time and again condemned, for we know this is not what God commanded for His people. He hates religious hypocrisy and performative piety. In continuation with the Old Testament prophetic tradition, just as in Matthew 6, we also see this in the words of Jesus in Matthew 9:13, where he quotes from Hosea: “I desire steadfast love and not sacrifice; the knowledge of God rather than burnt offerings.” (Hos. 6:9)
Social Media “Fasting”
Having done a brief overview of how fasting was practiced historically by both Jews and Christians on a regular basis; how improper fasting was condemned in the Old Testament; and how different Christian traditions practice fasting still today, where do we place abstention from social media?
A simple reductio ad absurdum will make the matter clear: Jesus did not have a Facebook to delete from his phone; Moses did not have Instagram to abstain from; and Paul certainly did not spend his evenings scrolling on Twitter or TikTok. I use social media daily, and I am not calling it evil. Nor am I saying that abstaining from social media for a time is hypocritical, pointless, or self-serving. While there is much benefit in decreasing our time scrolling mindlessly, I maintain it is a shortsighted way to cultivate one of those time-honored spiritual disciplines, like prayer, fasting, scripture reading, and simply sitting still in God’s presence.
As we have seen in both the Old Testament and the New, true fasting must be sacrificial, and involve abstention from food. This sacrifice is just as legitimate whether it is as small as giving up chocolate or meat, or doing a full, water-only fast for a time. The cravings or hunger of the body must be a reminder to us throughout our fast of the sacrifice we have chosen to make, and why we have chosen to do so–and that is so that we see God’s will be done and his Kingdom come!
We are called to imitate Christ in his self-sacrificial love for us, and fasting can become a highly effective way to live out a cruciform life. Through this we willingly enter into the suffering of Christ, even on some small level, for its power to transform us more and more into His image. Therefore, while abstaining from social media is a useful auxiliary to our cultivation of spiritual disciplines, we cannot call it fasting. Be encouraged, this is a doable practice that can yield much fruit, even with the smallest of sacrifices.
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Introduction
For JW, with gratitude.
In my earlier posts on this blog, I have written about fasting as an ascetic practice, or a discipline. Much of my work on this, especially from the view of theology, was on the benefits that it offers us, improving our self-control, increasing our capacity for joy in the midst of suffering, and overall, helping us to flourish individually.
I believe that was short-sighted, and did not encompass the fullness of the message of the Bible, and in fact, I nearly missed it. Indeed, I believe I was instead informed more by a self-help approach, or what Baylor theologian and ethicist Matthew Lee Anderson would call a therapeutic approach to the practice. (You can read more of his thinking here on painkillers and caffeine, and or in his 2011 book Earthen Vessels: Why Our Bodies Matter to Our Faith, which really shaped my thinking on this topic.) The last year or so has helped me to not only deepen my research on fasting, but also to broaden my perspective personally and theologically. The following will be a small sliver of what I have been thinking about lately.
First, I want to define the word shalom for us, or perhaps redefine it. Secondly, I will look at the role of humility and weakness in the fasting we see in the OT. Finally, I will connect those two ideas to show how fasting should generate compassion, and why this is so important.
Peace or Mutual Flourishing?
Shalom is broadly and most commonly defined as “peace,” but linguistically, and therefore theologically, it is much more than that. The way Hebrew works is that each word is built from a 3-letter root, made up of only consonants, thus in English we could transcribe this base word as sh-l-m (שׁלם). If we change the vowels according to certain rules, or add a prefix, we can also derive the words for “perfect” and “whole.” I am no expert (least not yet) in this realm called philology, but these literal meanings should inform the understanding of the word. Shalom is more than peace or simple tranquility; it is wholeness and well-being. In the context of the OT, it conveys the value of mutual flourishing, summarized by the command to love your neighbor as yourself (Lev. 19:18).
What has obsessed me about this topic is trying to understand why this practice is so powerful. Why is fasting efficacious? Why do I seem to at times find breakthrough when I have spent concentrated time in prayer and fasting, even though this is a normal, unremarkable, weekly practice for me? Do I really move God with my piety, or is it me that is moved instead?
Fasting in the Old Testament
The practice has its origins in the Ancient Near Eastern rites associated with mourning, which means wearing sackcloth and ashes, in addition to not eating. So many instances of fasting in the OT include some kind of mourning either for grief of loss; or anticipatory grief, when there is some threat on the horizon. It is a strong physical response to deeply disturbing events of life. Another important time when fasting was practiced in the Bible was on Yom Kippur, the Day of Atonement. This was part of how they were commanded to observe this holy day, so there is some connection between fasting and repentance.
So what’s the big deal?
Why deprive yourself of food? When one is grieving or suffering in some way, it is easy to not want to eat, so this is a natural, physiological response. But when it is practiced regularly, in a kind of ritual way–meaning that it is not a responsive act only–something special can happen, if we have the right mindset.
There is a lot going on here, in terms of social dynamics, that is not so obvious to us when we read the OT. This practice of fasting was probably always accompanied by some sort of physical, outward sign, like wearing sackcloth and throwing ashes on one’s head. This, by the way, is why Jesus tells His followers in Matthew 6 to essentially do away with the outwardness of fasting, and to let it be an inward, secret practice of piety that is for you and God alone.
I won’t bore you with the philological details or the minutiae, but what can be summarized as a common thread of fasting in the OT is humility, and by extension, weakness. The idiom in Hebrew used to sometimes refer to fasting can be literally translated as to “afflict oneself.” This has connotations of and connections to shame, humility, diminishment, self-abasement… basically to make oneself small and insignificant.
But are we truly making ourselves smaller than we actually are when we throw ashes upon our heads, whether literally or figuratively? Or is it based in a recognition of our smallness and relative insignificance? Why deprive ourselves of food when we can become “hangry” in just a number of hours? Why should we, essentially, lean into and actually increase our weakness, even if just for a day?
My Hebrew teacher said once that, anthropologically, fasting is a way to shame the deity into action. As a woman of faith, I doubt that we can move or influence God in some way, but we can attune our prayers to His will better when we decenter our selves by fasting.
I have become painfully aware lately of my weaknesses and my limits. Nowadays, the most normal things like grocery shopping and taking public transportation can result in huge upheavals of anxiety. Yesterday I was on the bus for one hour, and today I am utterly wiped out from the extra effort of keeping myself calm and distracted during that period.
Think about it this way. When I say weakness, it should not sound like a dirty word, because we all have them. What other weaknesses do I carry? Vices? Bad habits? Nervous habits? Coping mechanisms? What unites all these things is an understanding that we are human. At our limits is where we find God.
Daily Bread
When I was constantly running around at my café job, I struggled to keep a fast twice a week, because I always felt too tired and hungry to tolerate another fast. But the typical peasant of the time would have been constantly in motion like me, except unlike me, they had no easy access to extra calories. Their labor was hand-to-mouth. The words “food” and “bread” are synonymous in Hebrew for that reason; that’s all they could afford, and it was the basis of sustenance. I wonder if peasants in that time weren’t edged with hunger at all times, constantly aware and thus constantly both thankful for and fearful of their subsistence and the fruitfulness of their crops.
So then, why willingly deprive yourself when you’re already hungry? According to the OT, it is so you see and help the poor and the oppressed. What fasting does is simultaneously heighten the threshold for personal suffering, and deepen a sense of compassion because of that suffering. (Read Isaiah 58.)
Conclusion: The Generation of Generosity
This is not just an intellectual exercise; it is changing how I live my life. The last number of months I have been facing financial uncertainty, and I have felt like I can’t afford to tithe, like I normally do. Despite the fear, I chose to give anyway, because if I hoard out of greed and hunger and fear, this will consume me, and I will be of no use to the people around me: my neighbors.
Generosity is not only financial, though that is an important part of practicing love for neighbor. For many months it has been my hope and prayer that this pandemic will result in deeper compassion for the other through acknowledging our own fears and weaknesses, and in so doing, loosen our resources to be at the ready for someone else who is in need.
The secret? We are all in need. The main principle is that if we develop in a spiritual discipline like fasting, and it does not benefit our neighbor, then we have failed. My challenge to you: how can you prioritize generosity in your life so that you can more sustainably give, and in so doing, create mutual flourishing?
This is why we pray that God’s kingdom will come on earth as it is in heaven. We are seeking shalom.
Read Part II here.